Saturday, 17 July 2010
161.Wishes my head would shut up
The pretty pictures have been filling up my computer for a while.I'm always saving junk,just so that I can look at it later and feel inspired or just sort of happy. Warning...this is the part were I start to rant.
I've found myself feeling kind of crap recently.I think some things that are affecting me,plus just generally the whole picture is causing it. I'm getting mixed up a lot,and I keep questioning. I find myself getting very angry about petty people(who really aren't actually petty,they're just people who could be really nice),general nasty-ness,prejudice,and a lot of other shit. It's not healthy for me really,as it's the kind of stuff that can really get me down. It can start with just something stupid,and it builds into this whole "I hate everything" sort of feeling. I really don't hate though. I actually like life,and people....but at times I struggle with the way people can act.
I don't understand why people are mean. Why do people inflict pain on others,purposley for their own gain? Can't people just be nice? A couple of my friends like to mimick me by exclaiming "that so mean!"....but I've decided I don't care. I don't give a fuck if it makes me wet,or soft or stupid. I just see that being plain nasty shouldn't be acceptable.That judging a person (or a whole group) on nationality,skin colour,looks, sexuality,race ect is wrong. Lots of people seem to agree with this in the very extremes, but then still go along and judge.Not in extreme-ist ways,but its still the same principal! Okay so they wont go and punch a gay person purely for being gay,but they don't mind sniggering about it,and disliking the person. Does that make sense,or am I speaking complete rubbish?
I'm not perfect at all,but I'm working on it. I'm finding the lines,and trying not to cross them anymore. I'm trying not to be hypocritical. And I'm trying to keep a more open mind.
Oh,I don't know.I think I just should stop thinking all together.