229.Wishes to do something

I don't really vent much of my feelings into this blog,generally my diary is the place where I write about that sort of stuff.I already wrote in my diary but it doesn't feel enough.I don't know what to do.I don't know what to do at all.I just lay down,clutching my pillow,listening to music that all feels too relevant.I cant do anything. Why does it have to be this hard? I can't do anything,except think and think and think some more.and I can't even cry. sorry for being emotional. I just wanted to talk to someone I guess.
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